some people just never change, and that's a fact.

the funny thing is, people claim that they've changed for the better or whatever or have decided to finally see things how other people perceive them. there are so many people i know that say this shit all the time. i mean, of course, i don't really care but it DOES get annoying.

i'm currently at work listening to tengo un amor. lmao. how wack.

but anyways, this dude right, he's always on my jock about shit and he's upset that i do not feel the way he does. i do not want to pursue a relationship with him, ever probably. i'm satisfied with who i have now & there's no way he can ruin that. he's incompetent and he'd never even compare to my boyfriend. he's always bullshitting me at work. like seriously, is that necessary? bitch, i'm NOT tryna kick it to you. i'm NOT tryna get to know you. i'm here strictly for my internship so man the fuck up and get over your little bitch ass self cus nobody likes that shit. it's much appreciated when people know when to stop acting like little cunt muscles. but this dude, omg, youre way too old to be fuckin wit this type of shit. like seriously. he said that he's changed & he's a better person this & that. you still act like youre 13, sorry. sorry that youre 20 and you still suck. ok the end. lol.

/rant. lmao. im so wack.

but yeah, there are so many other people here in the office that are sweethearts, if only that idiot can realize. he doesn't have to take shit out on me just because a girl doesn't like you. that's just not how shit works.

but yeah, i'm about to go to dinner with wetwet, bexbear, & cristine. <3

some people are just so stupid.

i'm not even gonna mention any names in this, because you should know who you are. it's evident.

but! there are just so many people who are so idiotic & never think of consequences for their actions. i honestly think that there are people out there that are so insecure of themselves that they have to like "do something cool" or "say something cool" to make people think they're a good person. what IS the definition of cool anyway? but yo, there are so many kids out there that are cool but people are ignorant of the fact that they're different so they refuse to get to know them. i know some kids who are like, into way different shit than i am & hang out with way different people than i do, but it's not like i'm not gonna talk to them because they're not like me. people are so caught up in themselves nowdays. like, how is displaying pictures of you doing illegal shit cool? i honestly think you're just begging for attention. attention that you're STILL not getting in reality. you can get that shit on myspace & facebook all you fucking want but at the end of the day, you're still wiggity wack, b.

& yesterday must've been one of the most like .. nerve-wracking nights of my life. don't get me wrong, i love my friends to death but yo, yesterday was just too insane. i like don't even know where to begin but these dudes are seriously some of the most amazing people i know even though one of em, i've only known for about a week. they are wonderful people but i just wish they knew how wonderful they are instead of saying that they don't have anything ahead of them. success is always in the future, it's only your choice to pursue it. if you don't, then obviously it's not gonna come to you. success is for people who have the right mentality & believe in themselves.

it's one of those feelings you can't describe.

well, probably everyone knows already, but yeah, i have a boyfriend & his name is Harry. he is a respectable person & i care about him so much but lately, i've been feeling empty; i don't know what it is.. but it doesn't bother me but it does at the same time. i've been feeling indifferent almost. i know it's probably because we haven't seen each other in more than three weeks but i've been through the same thing before and it wasn't that bad, well it didn't feel as bad as this. ugh, i hate relationships. lol they make me think too much.

also, i had a good time last night, first time i actually went out like that since vickiana's birthday. spending time with people you truly care about is something that fills up that sense of emptiness, maybe that's why i felt better than usual. anyhow, i don't drink or smoke, so i drove. lol. it was pretty great. i pretty much suck at switching lanes & remembering what speed i should be going.

but on a better note, i'm officially off depo provera, that fuckin shot is what you ask for if you want to die & i'm mega excited for valentine's day, not only because that's the next day i'll be seeing harry but just the fact that we're all gonna be together. i love going out to dinner. lol.

when am i ever gonna get warmer?

yeah, it's pretty cold as shit outside. matter of fact, this has been the coldest winter in the last 3 decades. how does that make you feel? the snow's piling up, not melting, solidifying.

i honestly hate this season, not only because of the cold weather, but how people act during this season! like i've noticed people are bigger bitches during this time, including myself. so my bizzle. idk, something about winter that just gets to people to get them actin all dicky & shit.

but i must say, i've met some rather wonderful people during this time.

but yeah, i'm gonna hate winter until i can wear sweaters & panties in a log cabin at those ski resort type things. snuggle up close to the fire with some hot cocoa watchin a fuckin movie on a huge flat screen tv. yeah, that'll be the day i fuckin like winter.